Sunday, September 20, 2009

My experience in Honduras right after Mel was kicked out


Feelings of excitement and pure joy sent my heart racing as I stepped out of the airport and onto Honduran soil once again. It is difficult to explain the love I have for the country of Honduras and its people because it is so immense. What I can say is that I have felt a calling since my first mission in 2002 that has lead to a deep devotion to those in the Agalta Valley. The calling is so clear that there is nothing that would make me doubt where God wants me to be. Therefore, I was not concerned with worldly things such as politics when it came time for me to travel to Honduras this summer. I knew I was going to do God’s work, and that His work outweighed everything else.

However, the political situation has had an effect on the mission. When I saw the despair in people’s faces this year, I knew that my presence would mean something much more significant. We passed aldea after aldea whose residents had mounds of sand for floors that would not be laid. We saw countless children running about aimlessly due to the cancellation of classes, knowing that in addition to cancelled classes, they would not receive school supplies or hygiene kits this year. You can see the heavy burden the parents carry in their eyes. First the recession, then the political unrest, and then the final blow, no missionaries to give them the hope they so desperately need.

When we went to the middle school in Culuco, Leslie thanked us repeatedly for making the trip. She told us that many at the ranch and throughout the valley felt forsaken, but our presence there that week gave them hope. Of course, she didn’t refer to us as simply missionaries, but as close friends who had come to comfort them when they felt all alone. For the two weeks I was there, I was able to work in two aldeas doing mission work. The relief I saw in people’s eyes when we arrived brought me to tears. I knew that there was not anything more important than my presence at that time in that place. God’s work is not always easy or comfortable, but it is necessary. I love these people like they are my family, and this week I began to see how much we are loved as well. Sometimes people worry that some of the residents of the aldeas are more focused on receiving material items or home improvement, but I can assure you that this is not the case. We worked the two weeks we were there, but more importantly we spent time with our friends building stronger relationships and assuring them of our love for them. They were not worried about who was getting a floor put in as much as they were worried about being held. I will tell you that both young and old would come to me just to be hugged and told how much they were loved. That is what they want more than anything, because they have been feeling forsaken.

These past two weeks were the most meaningful weeks of my life because I was able to understand what we really mean to them. Sometimes it was through the smiles and laughter that I was able to initiate despite the rough times they are going through. And at other times it was through the worried and saddened faces of those who were delivering the news of another cancelled trip to a aldea. I saw God’s love, and the love between those in the Agalta Valley and those on the mission trips. The current situation has made everything so much clearer to me. We are more closely knit that most would initially think. We have become family, and amount of love they have for us is indescribable. As we were told by a close friend in El Quebrachal this year, the week we are there is like Easter and Christmas rolled into one. It is the best week of their year, a week that allows them to feel showered in love, comfort, and joy. Therefore, I can only imagine the pain that some must feel when no one shows up. I guess it would be like preparing for all of your family to come to your home to celebrate Christmas this year, even though their won’t be presents because of the financial strains. However, you are comforted by the fact that you will see them and be able to spend time with them. Then, when the day comes, no one shows up and you are alone. It is heartbreaking to think about because it is when we are alone that we realize how much we really love our families and need them.

I thank God that I was able to go on to Honduras these past two weeks, and that for the most part everything the media has been saying was just exaggerated for ratings. The only thing I saw were some road blocks, which did delay our arrival to Tegucigalpa but did not affect us during our mission week. In addition, the road blocks consisted of a group of people standing in a line to block traffic, but doing so peacefully. They were socializing, sharing picnics and relaxing. Yes, that is right, they are the same timid people we have come to know and love. Being with them this week gave them some assurance that they are loved and cared for, but I know that it goes further than that. There is something between us that is of God, something so powerful and influential that it cannot be explained. However, I was able to feel it this year, and understand it better due to how desperately they needed us, and we needed them. I know that when I give all my worries to God and focus on others, I am opening up the doors for God to use me for great things. He showed me the power of his love this week through our friends, just as he showed them through us. This bond created through God’s love by his children has proven to be stronger than any worldly matter, and has enriched my faith and theirs. I must thank Honduras Outreach Inc. for this experience because unlike many other organizations who have been overcome by fear, they have kept their focus on God. It has proven to be a wise choice and allowed us to have the most meaningful mission trip of our lives.

God Moment

This was originally written for our church newsletter after my 2008 mission. We have a section called "God Moments" where people share personal experiences where they felt God's presence. This is one of many that I had while in Honduras:

God moments. I have had many over the years, especially when I’ve been on missions. They have left me feeling a number of different ways and have helped me grow in my faith and understanding of God. They also remind me of how much I still have to learn, and how God is full of surprises. This was the exact message I received one day in Honduras last year. We were in El Quebrachal, working with old friends from the village, when it was brought to our attention that there was a young woman who was dying of throat cancer. As I was listening to one of the villagers I felt a deep urge to ask to go to the woman’s home. I have become a strong believer in prayer, and I thought that by going to pray with her in her home we would be able to give her some peace. I knew that she didn’t have access to any medical care or medicine for that matter. I knew that I should expect to see someone who was very thin and fragile, someone who would only be able to look back at me when I spoke to her. After listening to the villager tell me about her, I told other members of my team. There were several others who wanted to go to pray with her in her home, so we arranged to do so the following day.

When we arrived at her house the following day, I saw the person I had imagined, only something was different. We were there to give her peace, or so we thought, but she was so peaceful already. I didn’t see the fear or anguish that I expected to see in her eyes, but a calmness that could only have come from the Holy Spirit being present in her. The religious figure from the village, Antonio, had entered the house with us. The words that he spoke will stay with me forever. I had always wondered why some people died a long and drawn out death. I couldn’t find any reason in prolonged pain. However, Antonio began by telling us that God does not punish us or test us, but that instead he prepares us for heaven. Whereas many people would view what was happening to this twenty seven year old woman as undeserving pain, he did not see it that way. He said that God does this to bring us closer to him and create a stronger relationship with him before we die.

Until that day, I’d never thought of terminal illness in that way. I had watched people in my family die from terminal illnesses, and had always wondered what it would feel like to be in that position and if they were angry for having to suffer. However, after going to visit the woman in El Quebrachal, I gained a new understanding. Maybe the last months of a terminal illness aren’t at all like I had imagined them to be. Maybe it was like Antonio said, a peaceful time because you become very close to God, and are able to focus solely on him. Then I began to think of other times in life where God makes it hard for us. The reality is not that we are paying for something that we’ve done, but that he putting us in a position where we have to lean on him for help. So now, I try to be patient and search for the understanding when things are difficult, because I know that he is calling me back to Him. I also know that given the way of life in Honduras, many of the villagers have already known what I’ve just discovered. I always learn something from them, every time I visit, and I thank God for the opportunity to be in that place so that I may learn more about Him through the people there.